New Year: What’s It To You?

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2 January 2010 351 views 18 Comments

I rang in 2010 in deep thought and for a few hours in gut busting laughter making fun of youtube vids (exciting, I know) with my crazy ass BFF who is the kind of person who finishes my sentence before I know how I want to end it. I passed up alcoholic deep throating and overpriced sweat drenched nightspots for a night of serenity and simplicity solo….Its grapefruit juice in my glass I swear!

Aside from the sniggling, I had to examine myself harder than I ever had in the past. I found a lot of fears and inadequacies hiding in my bed sheets, underneath that layer of dust on my window sill, and underneath the dishes piled up in my sink. I began to clean and installed some new bright white light bulbs around the apartment. It only occurred to me the night before that I had been living in partial darkness for a few months. I knew I had to replace the bulbs but for some strange reason I found myself waiting for all the bulbs to blow simultaneously until I was left in darkness.

I woke up the next morning feeling a new positive and strong energy, Stronger than I had felt in a while.

I made a promise to myself that I would only claim the New Year and stick to my goals. I’ve been able to think of nothing but the plans I have for the New Year- meditate.

I also made a list of everything I wasn’t pleased with last year. I have faults and weaknesses that I need to acknowledge. I had to really examine them after I broke down this holiday. Why was it so difficult for me to accept the reality of the situation? Who was really at fault here? What could I have done differently?

That list almost made me not want to continue with Goddess Intellect. I figured, how am I to lead, inspire and entertain, if I don’t have my shit together?

I’m hard on myself, harder than anyone could be because “responsibility is a hard pill to swallow”.

I know I’ve been MIA since Christmas Eve, but I have decided to take a little break from the blog. I don’t want to give an exact date or time because I know when my intuition gnaws at my brain I have no choice but to post.

February is the official anniversary of Goddess Intellect. I figure that will be when I return, but please do not quote me on this!! I have a few surprises up my sleeve; including a vlog (video blog) with a special guest or two…we’ll see. Its about time the family be able to put a face, voice and crazy facial expressions to the name!!

I want to take this opportunity to thank everyone for reading.

I will still be active on the blog scene, making my rounds at various sites. I have done a hell of a lot over the past year, so please dig into the archives, and share them with your friends and family.

To make it easier for your lazy behinds I have posted links to my favorite past posts:

I Want What She Has: Emulating the Image Of a Different Race: The Ganguro girls really shocked many of the readers. This was fun to reaserarch.

I Am My Karma Pt.2: Discernment or Balderdash?: Ummm I need to print this out and do this for myself..Discernment is where it’s at!!!

Blogging While Brown Pt.4: BAP Living Radio Show: My radio debut, I really enjoyed doing the show and this is something I would like to do in the future.

Are You a Reflection of Me?: A post that had me emotional to no end. I thank everyone who commented, on this one their support did wonders.

Take It Off!: A night out with skrippasss..

If Your Girl Only Knew: wrote this one for a friend, interesting feedback!

Unconventional Ways: No regrets, enjoyed every second, but definitely not a position I want to put myself in again.

Freak-Um Friday: Afternoon Delight: Loved writing & experiencing this

It’s Not You, It’s Me: My twitter farewell

Claim this year as your own,

Goddess Intellect