It’s been a few weeks and I must admit I am a bit on the rusty side. Like many school-aged children I decided to take a smallish summer break from blogging. I used the time to focus on 9-5 (finding a new one), get the new book together and figure out what I needed to do to bring my life back into balance.
By that I mean sort out all the feelings that were raging inside of me. I’ve been so angry, scared, with the occasional giggle fest- no subtleties.
I needed to figure out how to make Battle of The Sexes work while juggling a full time job, because I’m not there yet. I’m not at a point where I can just throw all the meaningless files on my desk up in the air and say f*ck it! That day will be epic and videotaped- believe that.
This summer I’ve had struggles with authority, being financially castrated and maintaining grace and composure under extreme pressure. My mojo didn’t leave the building but it was certainly trying to go into the wrong hands.
I’ve had to also purge and reformat my social circle and activities. I had to be low key. I had to decline a lot more invites and I had to focus on reconnecting with those who I know get me. And by get me I mean the folks who know that doing ample amounts of “original” extra curricular activities takes time and focus, so they know I may not be able to talk on the phone daily for hours and its ok.
I struggled with having to sacrifice doing ample amounts of EPICness on dates. I struggled with the fact that dates could be a thing of the past very soon if and when we shack up. I still struggle with the idea of shacking up, although I was so sure of it a week ago.
The most frightening thing I endured was seeing a form of betrayal that I never saw coming. It hit me like a tonne of bricks. I had folks come to me asking about it and it made things even worse. Its one thing for my eyes to see it and feel it but when strangers point it out to you it’s real bad.
I came to the conclusion that everyone has the ability to betray us, most without a conscious. Good riddance.
Summer break taught me that I am on the right path. A few setbacks, a few severed friendships, a few quarrels and a new refreshed outlook on life.
The next few posts will take you on some of my internal journies, including a special announcement!
Thank you for your patience and please feel free to let me know what your summer was like below or by email email@example.com